Taking This Chance

Seriously.

I knew he had to leave. I know that he has to every weekend that we see each other. I’m aware that one of us will have to go and then we go another week. It just really sucks. And I’m sorry. I know how hard it is to not talk to see someone. My ex was in the Navy. Okay? So please don’t give me crap.

But honestly, I didn’t expect him to leave so early. I didn’t expect to have my best friend over the entire time he was here yesterday. And it just sucks. I go all week with maybe two text messages—if that—from him. And then I get 16 hours of a weekend with him?

I know, I really do, that that’s more than a lot of people can ask for. But I’m sorry. It still sucks. I know that I got spoiled being around him every day at school. And I know that he’ll start student teaching in the spring and I’ll hardly see him. But even so. this really just sucks. 

I know he wouldln’t have left unless he had to. I get it. But I just wish I had more time with him. It was like he wasn’t even here. :/ 

And then I find out my best friend can’t go with me to the beach. Awesome. And I have to go play a wedding today. Aren’t I lucky? And I’m trying to do stupid response for my stupid summer class and everyone is SO STUPID. 

I literally just want to curl into a ball and just stay there. And not do anything.

But all hell would break loose. So I guess that isn’t happening.

… awesome.

Today is just awesome.